I just had to come back and post that i not only did paint, I painted for about 45 minutes. I even experimented like
Renoir did in his later days with strapping a brush to his hand and forearm, but alas, I was able to hold a brush in my hand, albeit clumsily and not with any type of confidence of brush stroke but just used the moment for some loose brush work and more mental therapy than anything.
Just took my bandage off to let myself see the frankenstein like cut in my hand and stitches and all the green yellow purple bruising that goes with it. sometimes it's necessary to look at something or face it head on and not baby it so much.
really glad i painted today.